When I Keep Rolling Over: Answering the Morning Call of God
“He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear to hear as the learned.”
— Isaiah 50:4, NKJV
💬 Confession of a Soul Who Knew Better
Lately, God has been waking me up at 6:00 AM sharp. No alarm. No chaos. Just that gentle tug—a stirring in my spirit that says,
“Come. Let’s walk. Let’s talk.” And I know it’s Him. But instead of responding, I’ve rolled over. Pulled the covers back up. And drifted off—again.
What happens next is predictable: I wake up rushed. The boys are up by 8:30. My day is loud and busy before I’ve even had a moment of silence with the Lord. By the time they nap, I try to squeeze in what I could’ve received uninterrupted hours before—peace, direction, and the Presence of God.
But the moment… passed.
🔥 It’s Not Just Sleep. It’s Disobedience.
I didn’t want to call it that at first.
I told myself, “You’re just tired.” But deep down, I knew.
The Holy Spirit wasn’t just inviting me into a peaceful morning—He was training me in responsiveness.
He would whisper,
“Take your shower now.”
“Get up—they’ll be awake soon.”
“Move—while it’s quiet.”
But I hesitated. Delayed. Ignored.
And here's the truth that hit hard:
Delayed obedience is disobedience.
Every time I roll over instead of rise, I’m saying,
“Later, Lord. I’ll come… on my terms.”
😔 Have I Made Sleep an Idol?
Yes.
That’s the hard truth I had to admit to myself.
Sleep—something good and God-given—became something I guarded more than His voice. I elevated it. I protected it. I let it decide when I moved and when I didn’t.
That’s an idol.
“You shall have no other gods before Me.” — Exodus 20:3
“Their god is their belly…” — Philippians 3:19
When I cling more tightly to my pillow than to His prompting…
When I shield my eyes from the morning light because I’d rather dream than receive…
That’s idolatry in disguise. Not loud. Not blatant. But deadly to spiritual growth.
🙌🏾 The Gentle Conviction of God
And yet… He’s so kind. He didn’t snatch me up. He didn’t condemn me. He kept waking me up.
Because conviction is not condemnation. It’s an invitation back into rhythm with Him.
He wants me to rise. Not because He’s tallying performance—but because He knows what’s waiting when I say “yes”:
Peace before the storm.
Instruction before the confusion.
Anointing before the assignment.
He’s not just calling me to be awake. He’s calling me to be alert.
🧎🏽♀️ My Personal Confession + Surrender
Lord, I repent.
You’ve been so gentle, so faithful… and I’ve ignored You. I’ve protected my sleep more than Your Presence. I’ve made comfort my compass instead of You.
But not anymore.
Today, I dethrone sleep. I tear down the idol I’ve built in the name of rest. I choose to rise when You call—even if I’m tired. Even if I don’t “feel” ready.
You are my rest. You are my strength. And You are worth the first moments of my day.
🕊️ If You’ve Been Rolling Over Too…
This is not condemnation. This is your wake-up call—literally.
The Lord is inviting you back to your morning assignment. He wants to meet you before the noise. Before the news. Before the children wake. He wants you whole—not just surviving.
Sometimes the cost of disobedience isn’t punishment—it’s missing the moment. So let’s stop trading revelation for rest.
Let’s rise when He calls.
✍🏾 Journal Prompts
What comforts have I been protecting more than God’s voice?
What has the Holy Spirit been prompting me to do that I’ve ignored?
Am I willing to rise—even when it costs me comfort?
✅ Try This: A Holy Morning Reset
📱 Set an alarm for 5:55 AM. Label it: “He’s Waiting for You.”
👟 Place your journal, Bible, and walking shoes by your bed.
🙏🏾 Whisper before rising: “Yes, Lord. Speak—I’m listening.”
Even if you sit in silence, half-awake, with nothing but open hands and an open heart—that’s obedience. And obedience unlocks everything.
